New leaf

I started my new work at the health center of our municipality. I know its not much of a training ground. I did set aside my desire to be an accomplished specialist. Maybe this new environment would make me rethink of how I lived for those 2 years. Those years made me someone that I am not in the start. I always dreamt of being a physician and it came true. But as I was fulfilling that dream, I havent noticed that its making me someone I'm not. A simple life, that is all I wanted. In my 30 years of existence I have my fair share of mistakes in so many different aspects of my life but getting out of that horrible place has never been one of them. It made me realized that it just made me a person with no conscience,  heartless, a person that has no soul at all. I asked myself if this is I want, if this is the life I want to live. yeah, for every doctor or for mostly all doctors, its a great achievement when you've become a specialist. I guess, its not for me. simplicity runs through my blood. and maybe this change in environment would bring back the humility I once had, the simplicity, and the genuine care that I always rendered to those in need. 

and I think,  being on this new environment and meeting new people, will always remind me of how lucky I am that Ive got to fulfill my dream. 

The Mistress

just watched this movie. a good movie. never had i imagined that i would like it. considering im not much fond of philippine movies. im not discriminating or something. its just that its not my preferred kind of movies to watch on the big screen. a friend just invited me to see this, i hesitated for a moment, but when he said that its his treat, well, how can a gal say no to that, right? haha though i cant really relate to the plot, but the acting of the leads was so intense that you can feel how passionate and how deep the evolution of the story went. i was expecting that the ending was a fairytale like end, "then they live happily ever after" kind of ending and I was wrong about it. its an unexpected ending or should I say something different but you'll definitely will be satisifed of it. hmm... all I can say is that this is a movie worth watching especially when someone treats you to watch this! :)

the things you can do

It made me realize how stupid I can get when it comes to that certain person I practically grew to care a lot! The things you can do for that someone you care. You cant think straight, you cant and will not say no to anything he asks of you. hmmm... its really stupid but I just cant help not to give in to anything and everything he requests. that's just me. simple minded, gullible, stupid girl whose head over heels gaga on some guy! sheesh! and apparently, all this time he just keeps on ignoring me. huh... I was thinking if maybe there'll be this time and age that the situation would turn around. him, being the stupid and gullible one and me being the ignoring type and I-really-dont-care-about-you gal! That would be epic! huh! 
its not a big deal, we're friends actually. and I'm thinking I'm JUST a FRIEND trying to help out, right? 
after all this years of being friends with the guy I like, I was hoping that someday he would realize how far I can go by helping not because we are friends but because I care about it him. I'm not asking to throw himself to me and say that he feels the same way too. but a little appreciation on his part would do. :) pathetic right? but that's how the world works! gotta be the stupid one and him being the for-all-I-care guy. 
on the other hand, maybe I'll find that someone that would care. still am hoping for that guy to come... maybe...just maybe.... 

Writing again

If it haven't been for an anonymous comment I wouldn't find my blog. It brought back memories of what I was when I was in med school. And of course my never ending whining about it. I hardly write now a days. But seeing my blog for the first time again for so many years of not checking it, I think I'll try writing again. I'm not a good writer, it doesn't matter. It's the fun and fulfillment made by writing, that's what I'm after. 😊 writing again is what I need. You can call it as some form of therapy. And maybe it is. Now, I can write about the things I can't say or the events in my life that I want to reminisce. Hmmm... I'm excited!

Beef Brisket ni Kuya Lester

over the weekend nagpunta ko sa cavite kina charis... hmm... nag unwind dahil katatapos lang ng isang madugong exam! nwei, lester is a new friend inintroduce ni charis... well, simepre mejo kapal ng face ko at nakiclose close ako sa kanya. hehe... nwei, pinagmamalaki niya ang beef brisket sa cavite.sabi niya pag bumalik ako dun ililibre niya ko, for that naexcite at nacurious ako sa beef brisket niya at nakakaengganyo dahil every week talagang hindi nawawaglit na makakain siya nun... weird na nilalang di ba? ehehe... isip ko siguro nga talagang masarap na makakalimutan mo pangalan mo? haha ritual niya na yun every week with matching chicken feet and bottomless iced tea... hmm... so eto na nga, mega punta ko ng cavite buti na lang at hindi ako nawala.. dinner niya kami niyaya.. name nga pala nung restaurant is King Bee... hmm... siempre mejo kabado at baka nga di ko magustuhan dahil feeling ko bago sa kin... well, di pwedeng magreklamo kasi nga libre yun... hehe hindi pwedeng pairalin ang pagkaprangka sa ganung sitwasyon... hehe... so ayun na nga... order na ang kuya lester.. eh dinagdagan pa niya ng soyed chicken.. hmmm.... so akala ko ang serving nila eh konti lang. so wait kami na iserve... eto na, shux!! kaoverwhelm ang food... ang rice grabe! pang dalawang tao.. hmm... di ko nga alam saan siniksik ni charis at lester yung kinain nila eh. hehe kasi ako di ko talaga nakayanan! hinati ko na talaga yung rice at feeling ko tingin palang busog na ko... i must say, the food was great. naoverwhelm lang talaga ako at madami yung serving. parang wala sa usual na kinakain ko. eto na ang beef brisket, katawa kasi talagang alam ni lester kung anung napalitan sa dish na yun. haha katuwa di ba? sabi nga namin magfranchise na sia. galing di ba? sa every week na pagdine niya dun pati pagpapalit ng chef eh alam niya just because of that particular food... haha... weird.. pero all in all sarap nung beef brisket at chicken feet, di ko lang masyadong nanamnam kasi nga may soyed chicken pa. hehe nahiya nga ako at talagang di ko na naubos. :) oh well, next time talagang i'll prepare myself when someone will introduce me to a new dish. haha naanticipate ko kasi na hindi siya ganun karami... hehe... well, it was a good and memorable experience! thanks kay lester at charis for that!!! :)

HYPO

at long last may maisusulat na ko ulit... this past few weeks, dami kong nararamdaman... i have lower back pain which lasted naman for 1 day only. fortunately hindi siya nagtagal... after that im feeling sleepy always lagi akong hinahatak ng bed to sleep... would you imagine na 3x a day kung matulog ako sa isang araw? hmm... so i thought na normal lang at sadyang tamad akong bata... hehe eh since birthday ko naman dat time, nagpa routine lab exam ako, at si mami naman ang nagrarun ng para sa thyroid panel siempre naidamay na din... well, actually matagal ng may hinala si mami na may endocrine problem ako.. pero siempre ayokong maniwala at nagpapakuha ako sa kanya ng dugo to prove na normal pa naman ako... hehehe i really imagined myself having some systemic illness or something na may lifetime na gamutan when i reach the age of 45? i was so wrong... very wrong.... well, ayun, the results came out all was normal except for my thyroid panel!!! waaah!!! yun pa naman ang ayokong sakit dahil para kang drug addict sa pag inom ng gamot!!! yun nga, hypothyroid ako... good timing pa talaga ang sakit na to ha, at yun ang pinagaaralan ko sa pathology! nakakarelate!!! hehehe nung sinabi pa lang ni mami na elevated yung mga test, sobrang nag isip na ko hanggang sa pagtulog ko yata at panaginip nadala ko yung pag iisip ko.... i was thinking kailangan ba kong madepress? or it should be treated like there's nothing wrong with me? siempre aside from the fact that there's something wrong inside me... i really dont know how to handle it... siempre mega text ako kay ferdie, ang reply ng lolo at least now you know!!! waaaa!!!! hindi ko alam kung matutuwa ako o maiinis sa reply niya eh... sabi ko nga at this time and age hindi ko naisip man lang na magkaroon ng ganun... si ninel naman nung minsan nasabi ko din na ganun, aba apektado ang lola!!! hehehe naglungkut-lungkutan!!! habang nag uusap kami, napapansin niya na mejo bagal ko daw magsalita at mejo exaggerated na my slurring of speech daw ako!!! waaahhh!!!! sabi ko anu ka ba! nakakadepress kaya yang mga sinasabi mo! well, kilala naman na ko nun kaya kayang kaya niyang magsalita ng ganun at siempre alam niya kung anu talaga ang mga manifestations ng may hypothyroid... fortunately, hindi naman siya nakakamatay as long as nakamaintain ka ng gamot... one thing im afraid to be manifesting is mental retardation!!! hay... saklap ng buhay, wala na ngang boyfriend eh nagdedeteriorate pa ang utak!!! hehe kakarampot na nga lang mawawala pa sakin... hehehe well, i think naman na nakukuha sa gamot, yun nga lang lifetime treatment... kaya pala din na ang mga tantrums ko out of the blue.. ganun kasi ang mga hypo, may sariling mundo! hehehe nwei, i finally realized that just go with the flow and pray... its all ive got... may classmate din naman akong may thyroid problem and she did survive ngayon 3rd year na siya... at eto pa nga ako na naman ang highest sa pathology exam namin ( pahumble na tono to, hindi po nagmamayabang (: ) kaya meaning to say na malayo pa ko sa pagkakaroon ng tama sa utak!!! wehehehe.... :)

DOCTORS

Doctors by Erich Segal

At the novel's heart is the unforgettable relationship of Barney Livingston and Laura Castellano, childhood friends who separately find unsettling celebrity and unsatisfying love - until their friendship ripens into passion. Yet even their devotion to each other, even their medical gifts may not be enough to save the one life they treasure above all others.

ganda ng book na to. nay, natapos ko na din siya. hehe ok basahin. napa isip tuloy ako parang gusto kong mag psychiatry. maging isang shrink! hehe nakakarelate ako kay barney eh. maganda.. lalo na yung pagsasaulo ng cranial nerves. katuwa kasi tinuro din sa min yun sa anatomy. "oh,oh, to touch and feel a girl's vagina, ah heaven!" hehe galing diba? hindi ko akalain na talaga palang ginagamit noon pa yung pnemonics na yun. natuwa talaga ko. yun lang.

ACCIDENTALLY INLOVE

accidentally inlove

i wish i had the personality that wud impress you,

i hope i had the ability that wud satisfy ur needs

i wish i had the face that wud catch your eyes,

i hope i cud be the person that you'd need...

i love u and truly mean this,

and i guess i am so doing my best to win your heart,

i am taking the risk and grabbing the chance i have,

although you're not giving me much time, it'sok...

even you're not sharing much attention,it's ok...

I am being a good friend to you,

trying to share the wisdom I have,

I find ways to make you smile,

showing that i am always by your side,

touching your life in anyway i can,

trying to penetrate into your life,

hiding my weakness so that you'd know how strong i cud be for you...

look at me now, this is all for you.

I admire you, your honesty and humility...

I am fascinated with your face...

I fantasized always being with you...

I dream having you mine...

I confessed...

But, as time passes by,

I thought that you're getting far from me...

no matter how i stretched my arms, i won't reach you...

I thought that you really are just a dream to me,

i can't have in reality...

I really have fallen for you and it kills me tohold myslelf back.

I can't hate you, or push you away from me...

it hurts me deeply when i am reminded that i can't call you mine...

so i guess i just have to take this feeling away

cuz this makes me weak,

have to force myself to pretend until this fades away,

so that i cud be the strong friend that you really need and want...

i am doing this so, because i can not afford to lose you...

nice poem di ba? ehehe... nakakarelate kaya i pasted it here. :) well, this was posted by a classmate of mine sa friendster. ken, sencia na i posted it here. hehe :) wala lang. sobrang tinamaan ako eh. hehe kung sino ka man na gusto kong patamaan sa poem na to, well, hindi mo na malalaman pa. haha.. yun lang...

Some people...

hay... i just dont get it, why do some people tend not to know even the simplest things in life! shets! o ako lang itong nag aakalang mababaw ang mga concepts ko well in fact malalim pala? hmmm.... ewan ko... nakakainis lang kasi kung minsan. parang sobrang simple na nga, hindi pa rin nila magets? shux! kailangan ko bang magtagalog ng malalim para sa mga ganung bagay? hay.. ewan ko.. nabuo lang sa isip ko simula ng pumasok ako sa pag memed na malawak at intelehente ang mga taong makakasalamuha ko... na sa kahit anung aspeto ng buhay eh they know something kahit konti lang at least may alam di ba? well, i was so wrong with that. may mga taong ganun pala, na kahit napakasimple na ng pinaguusapan, para sa kanya malalim at wala talaga siyang kaideidea about it. hmm... simpleng pagooperate ng computer kailangan pang iaasa sau? i mean, someone living this time and age you cant operate on a computer? weird, pero its true. ewan ko. nakakainis lang. para bang lahat na lang you have to supply kasi hindi niya alam? hay, anu nga bang alam ng mga ganitong tao? hmm... they're just living in a world na ang alam lang ay pharmacokinetics, necrosis, GI bleeding, hematemesis at kung anu anu pang medical terms jan! hmm.. panu na yung situation sa labas ng mundong yun? panu na yung reality? hindi ko alam kung ikaiinis ko o maaawa ako sa mga ganun.. pero eto lang, hindi siya nakakahawa. hehe kasi kung nakakahawa malamang pati ako ganito na din. well, nakakapagbasa pa naman ako ng pocketbooks, nakakapagsulat pa rin naman ako sa blog, updated pa rin naman ako sa iba't ibang bagay.. naisip ko wala lang ba silang interes sa mga ganun? o sadyang sineclude na nila ang mga sarili nila sa outside world? hmmm... ewan.. napatunayan ko lang lalo na medical people are boring. hehe... up to the extent na wala ng kayang iconverse kundi kung paano ang mechanism of action ng antihelminthic drugs! haha.. yun lang. gusto ko lang pagkatuwaan ang mga taong nakapaligid sa kin -- medical students who dont know what reality means...

FREAKY DAY!!!!

yesterday was freaky to me.. hmm... why? i dreamt twice. imagine in 1 day you dreamt about some freaky thing. and it was almost related to each other, actually not almost but totally related. my first dream was about me loosing my teeth after brushing. well, not just a tooth but 3 of my molars went off. our family is so much superstitious on almost everything! i myself do believe on it. well, because of first hand experiences and there's no harm naman if you would follow such things. loosing a tooth in a dream meant that you may lose someone close to you. ano pa kaya ang 3 ngipin na natanggal di ba? i was so freaked out! so after ive taken my morning rituals, elders say that when you had a dream about something like that you should bite to a tree trunk to counteract the jinx! well, i did that! but my whole day was so full of anxiety! GeeZ! i have an exam for the following day and i cant concentrate with it, so i decided to just go to sleep again. and what a surprise and i got my second dream! shux! i dreamt of my tito homer having a car accident with a couple which happens to be parents of one of my friends but i really dont know who is that friend of mine. well, what a dream di ba? parang puro patay. mami told me that tulog kasi ako ng tulog kaya kung anu-ano daw ang pumapasok sa utak ko. well, prayers are the best counteract for all of these right? i just prayed and told Him that if there's such a thing that would come into reality, let it be me na lang. hmm... well, that's my story..

lesson learned!

a few days back i was thinking of something to write. hmm.. something with some sense and can be criticize by my ever loving friends! hehe but i end up greeting them :) well, now i have something in my mind that needed some honest opinion from my ever greatful friends! hmm... it happened last friday, i didnt go to school coz there's nothing to do. instead i stayed home and pretent to study because its our finals.hehe and thinking that i havent missed anything for that day. i mean from the paper works, passing of reports and all that. i thought i've finished it so it wont matter if i wont come to school. so my day was fine, pretending to study but most of the time i was asleep. hehe at around 4 pm my classmate txt me and ask if i was able to pass my expt in microbiology. hmm,.. well, unfortunately i havent. so i did text my friendly friends from school if they did pass their micro.. i wasnt surprised with the reaction but made me think that there was some sarcasm to her reply. no one reminded me of that expt. well, a little fault in my part , well a huge one i suppose, cause it slipped my mind. hmm.. being the emotional person, and i admit it, it got me into thinking that neither one of them realized that i was missing the whole day and no one dared to text me. hay.. i find it so sad to realized things like that. i mean, it was just a simple thing, but it really mattered to me. i mean what if i was really missing? oh well, i know i have to be responsible for myself. its just that i was so comfortable with them and into some extent dependent on them. which was wrong, i know.. it gave me a lesson, that no matter how comfortable you are to the people surrounding you, and thinking that they are your confidante, well, you should be always in your guard and be responsible to what you do.. well, it was sad but i learned something. its shallow but hey, shallow things can make you a better person! :) ciao!

congratulations!

exhausted to the max ang week na to. hay... hindi pa rin ako nakakabawi sa tulog pero oks lang. malapit na kasi ang exams kaya ganun. well, anu bang kwento? hmm... as usual toxic sa school. hmm.. gusto ko nga palang batiin ang mga classmates kong pumasa ng med tech board exam! ang galing nila. weekend lang mga nag aral. :) kakaiba. mga super humans yata. congrats din sa mga friends na nag ka gf at bf jan. hehe kilala niyo na kung sinu sino kayo.hehe batiin portion to. kasi nakakalimutan kong bumati ng personal. hehe sinu-sino pa ba? hapi birthday nga pala kay bea, ang pinsan kong maldita. hehe yun lang. wala na kong mabati eh. nay, hello. walang sawang taga tingin ng blog ko! hehe kay paolo, ferdie, mga lolo, hapi ako for the both of you. mabuhay kayo! :) hehe yun lang. wala lang. basta lang may maisulat ako.

I LOVE MEDICINE!

hay.. what a day.. i had my pre final exams on pharmacology. after that our group had a meeting about our clinicopathologic conference, in short a cpc... our case was that of GoodPasture's syndrome pero ang dami pa pala niyang sakit aside from that. nakakaloka kahit na puro tawa lang ang ginawa ko the whole afternoon. nalipasan pa kami ng gutom. hay.. karir to para sa pagpasa ko sa pathology. ehehe napakahirap! nwei, ngayon ko lang narerealize na nilalamon na pala talaga ako ng medicine. i havent got the time to see the movies i want to watch. hay.. nagtambak na nga yung mga gusto kong panoorin. ehehe... nakakalungkot lang. sasabayan pa ng lahat ng nakapaligid sayo eh may mga special someone! shet! what a life! mas lalo kong nanlumo. hehe imagine sa mga friends ko from school, ako na lang ang walang bf? di bale anjan naman si robbins (my patho book) i know he'll take good care of me. wahaha desperado ang dating. :) but im hapi for them kahit OP na ko from the talks about their bfs. geez! lalake lang yan! hahaha... wala lang. walang mapupulot na aral from this. its just a simple entry from a medicine student with a miserable life! hahaha

BROKEBACK MOUNTAIN

Brokeback Mountain
By Ray Bennett


Bottom line: Epic story about two men in love with the West, and each other.This review was written for the festival screening of "Brokeback Mountain." VENICE, Italy -- Everything you ever imagined about the characters of John Wayne and Montgomery Clift in "Red River" or Joel McCrea and Randolph Scott in "Ride the High Country" is revealed candidly in Ang Lee's "Brokeback Mountain," an epic Western about forbidden love.Anne Proulx's 1997 short story in the New Yorker has been masterfully expanded by screenwriters Larry McMurtry and Diana Ossana to provide director Lee with his best movie since "Sense and Sensibility" in 1995.Featuring scenes filmed in the fabulous Canadian Rockies of Alberta and boasting a fine cast topped by Heath Ledger and Jake Gyllenhaal, "Brokeback Mountain" will appeal to moviegoers who enjoy grand filmmaking and poignant love stories, whether gay, hetero or otherwise.The film, which screened in competition at the Venice International Film Festival, follows two men, Ennis Del Mar (Ledger) and Jack Twist (Gyllenhaal), and their love for each other that in the hide-bound and traditional world of the American West they must keep hidden, fearful not only of scandal but also for their lives.Ennis and Jack meet in 1963 when they each show up looking for a summer's work herding sheep on Brokeback Mountain, Wyoming, on land owned by no-nonsense rancher Joe Aguirre (Randy Quaid). In order to keep his herd safe, Aguirre is happy to break regulations by requiring one of his men to roam high in the mountains, sleeping rough with no fire, while the other maintains a base camp with a one-man tent throughout the summer and into the fall.There's nothing romantic about herding huge numbers of four-legged beasts left to range far and wide, and cowboys pretty much have cornered whatever romance there is in rugged outdoor animal husbandry. Riding herd on sheep guaranteed a horseman a hard time in old Westerns, but Ennis and Jack make the most of it, even if their diet is mostly beans.They don't talk much, but Ennis speaks of being raised by his brother and sister after their parents died in a car crash, and of a woman named Alma he plans to marry. Jack tells of stern parents and working the Texas rodeo circuit. The scenery is breathtakingly gorgeous but their days are hard, with bears and coyotes threatening, and the biting mountain cold, and the two men soon come to rely on each other totally.One night, Ennis decides to sleep by the fire rather than head off to his lonely post, but in the wee small hours, with the fire dead, he's freezing. Jack yells at him to join him in his tent. A simple human gesture in sleep prompts a frantic coupling that in the cold light of morning each man is quick to dismiss.The summer ends, and as time goes by Ennis marries Alma (Michelle Williams) and Jack weds Lureen (Anne Hathaway), and they each have kids. The men's shared passion keeps its fire, however, and their affection and need for each other grows. Over the years, they contrive to spend time together back on Brokeback Mountain. Always there is the threat of exposure and the fear it breeds.Pulitzer Prize-winner McMurtry ("Lonesome Dove") and Ossana, his writing partner since 1993 who has shepherded the project for eight years, use a large canvas for what is really an intimate story. They develop the secondary characters with great insight and compassion. The women in the lives of Ennis and Jack are given full attention, and the acting, especially by Williams, Hathaway and Kate Mara, as Ennis' daughter Alma at age 19, is deeply affecting.The fine details of the West are as precise as you would expect from a McMurtry piece, and Lee's adroitness with the excellent cast is on full display, particularly in the brave and moving performances of Ledger and Gyllenhaal.The dusty towns of Wyoming and Texas are contrasted with the spectacular Canadian Rockies, splendidly filmed by Rodrigo Prieto, and the film benefits enormously from composer Gustavo Santaolalla's melodic and plangent score.

BROKEBACK MOUNTAIN

A Focus Features and River Road Entertainment presentation

Credits:

Director: Ang Lee

Screenplay: Larry McMurtry & Diana Ossana

Based on the short story by: Annie Proulx

Producers: Diana Ossana, James Schamus

Executive producers: William Pohlad, Larry McMurtry, Michael Costigan, Michael Hausman, Alberta Film Entertainment

Director of photography: Rodrigo Prieto

Production designer: Judy Becker

Editors: Geraldine Peroni, Dylan Tichenor

Music: Gustavo Santaolalla

Cast: Ennis Del Mar: Heath Ledger

Jack Twist: Jake Gyllenhaal

Joe Aguirre: Randy Quaid

Alma: Michelle Williams

Lureen Newsome: Anne Hathaway

Alma Jr., age 19: Kate Mara

Alma Jr., age 13: Cheyenne Hill

Cassie: Linda Cardellini

Monroe: Scott Michael Campbell

Fayette Newsome: Mary Liboiron

L.B. Newsome: Graham Beckel

Randall Malone: David Harbour

Lashawn Malone: Anna Faris

Jack's mother: Roberta Maxwell

John Twist: Peter McRobbie

MPAA rating R

Running time -- 134 minutes

Troubled Mind!

hay... what a week.. im experiencing dull days. hmm.. im not sad but really troubled. thinking about many things and i can't quite resolve it. its not like me. i usually have a drive on doing things especially when it involves school work. but now i felt like i really dont care if i dont submit my papers on time, i dont care if i miss a lecture. id rather stay home and sleep! hmm.. i dont care if i didnt study for tomorrow's exams. hay... im thinking of quitting medical school. i mean to find sime time really to think if this is what i really want. i was so ashamed of myself last friday, we had our practical exam on physical diagnosis, i halfheartedly study for it just to get it over with. while being the patient of my classmate, my mind was on a whirlwind of thoughts. thinking that i cant hardly report the result of what i have done to the patient. what will happen to me in the future, when i continue to be like this? i mean, can i save lives for such an attitude? i dont think so. i want to tell it to mommy kasi talagang im beginning not to enjoy what im doing. parang nagsasawa ako. i really need some time off to get my nerves to relaxed. ewan ko, dahil ba sa dami talaga ng ginagawa kaya ganun na lang ako or im not really progressing from this. i dont know.. nwei, i hope i can get through this. i really hope...

CONFESSIONS OF A BROKEN HEART

Confessions Of A Broken Heart

I wait for the postman to bring me a letter

I wait for the good Lord to make me feel better

And I carry the weight of the world on my shoulders

A family in crisis that only grows older

Why'd you have to go

Why'd you have to go

Why'd you have to go

Daughter to father, daughter to father

I am broken but I am hoping

Daughter to father, daughter to father

I am crying, a part of me is dying and

These are, these are

The confessions of a broken heart

And I wear all your old clothes, your polo sweater

I dream of another you

The one who would never (never)

Leave me alone to pick up the pieces

A daddy to hold me, that's what I needed

So why'd you have to go

Why'd you have to go

Why'd you have to go!!

Daughter to father, daughter to father

I don't know you, but I still want to

Daughter to father, daughter to father

Tell me the truth, did you ever love me

Cause these are, these are

The confessions of a broken heart

I love you,

I love you

I love you

I....!!!!!I love you!!

Daughter to father, daughter to father

I don't know you, but I still want to

Daughter to father, daughter to father

Tell me the truth...

Did you ever love me!!!?

Did you ever love me?

These are.....

The confessions...of a broken heart

Ohhh....yeah

I wait for the postman to bring me a letter..

MEMOIRS OF A GEISHA

this is the book im reading right now. actually hindi pa ko tapos. konti na lang. hehe im looking forward sa movie sana ganon din kaganda katulad nung book. i was fascinated on how the author described her. a typical girl but with extraordinary eyes. hmm.. i was so hooked with the book that i ignored reviewing for my exams the following day. hehe ganun ako ka amazed. hehe well, isa pa on how he described the kimono the geisha's are wearing. parang ang gaganda nila. detalyado. pati yung maliit na detalye sinabi niya. its a good book, for me kasi parang it brought me to another world. the world of a geisha.. :) its truly intriguing.. :)

Parokya

Parokya Ni Edgar - Gitara

Bakit pa kailangan magbihis

Sayang din naman ang porma

Lagi na namang may sisingit

Sa twing' tayo'y magkasama

Bakit pa kailangan ng rosas

Kung marami namang

Mag-aalay sa'yo

Pupuno na lang ng paawit

Maghihintay ng pagkakataon

Hahayaan na lang silang

Chorus:

Magkandarapa na manligaw sa'yo

Idadaan na lang kita

Sa awitin kong ito

Sabay ang tugtog ng.... gitara

Idadaan na lang.... sa gitara

Mapapagod lang sa kakatingin

Kung marami namang nakaharang

Aawit na lang at magpaparinig

Ang lahat ng aking nadarama

Pagbibigyan na lang silang

(Repeat Chorus)

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Malungkot na Balita

paano ko nga ba ikukuwento ito? hmm... actually, its not my story but someone close to me. I sympathize with her.well, im telling this story because it strucked me.naglalakad ako pauwi.katatapos lang ng klase namin ng makita ko yung kaibigan ko. tinawag niya ko. binibiro ko pa nga. pero sa itsura niya mukhang lungkot na lungkot siya na hindi naman yun ang usual niya. naupo kami sa isang tabi, sinabi niya sa akin na namatay na ang lola niya. tapos nun bigla na lang siyang nagiiyak. tuesday pa daw namatay pero nalaman niya ngayung thursday lang. nadulas daw nagkafracture at walang nag asikaso. close siya sa lola niya na yun kaya ganun na lang ang lungkot niya. masakit yun. wala akong maipayo sa kanya pero alam ko yung lungkot na nararamdaman niya. nasabi niya pa na ayaw niyang tumanda at mamatay ng wala man lang nag aasikaso sa kanya. narealize ko oo nga. ayoko din na maranasan ko ang ganun. na ang sarili mong pamilya walang pakialam sa yo at hahayaan ka na lang mamatay sa isang tabi. nalungkot ako para sa kanya.dahil alam kong sobrang pagmamalasakit at pag aalaga ang ibinigay niya para sa lola niya.ang unfair ng buhay di ba? hindi man lubusang masaya ang lola niya nung namatay, alam ko kahit papaano natuwa din ang lola niya sa kanya sa mga sakripisyong ginawa niya. hmm... what's the story behind kung bakit may mga taong walang pakialam sa mga magulang nila lalo na kapag matanda at alagain na? hindi ko alam..at sadyang malungkot..

Blood Donation

well, may mass blood letting sa school ngayong araw na to. ayun, excited pa naman ako dahil gusto kong mag donate ng blood.ever sa tagal ko ng nagdodonate ng blood ngayon lang ako nadeferred. hay... eto ang kwento. eh di after ng shifting exam namin sa pharma eh pumunta na kami sa may lobby at nag fill up ng form. since my klase pa ko ng 1 pm kaya hindi pa ako na physical exam.after ng klase ko balik ulit kami dun, yung kasama ko eh natanggap na at ibbleed na siya. so pila naman ako ulit at ng pa physical exam sa mga mababait na pgi ng feu hospital. hehehe so tapos na ang first step. screening na lang. eh may klase pa ko ulit hanggang 5pm. so after nun, eto na screening na lang at pwede na akong ibleed. alam ko naman sa sarili ko na ok ako kasi lagi nga akong nagdodonate kapag may mass blood letting sa school. siempre kampante ako.. eto na yung med tech intern at tinusok ako sa daliri para kuhanin ang hemoglobin ko. hay... ipinatak sa copper sulfate at tiningan kung lulubog ang dugo, indication ok ang hgb at fit ka para magdonate. to my surprise, shets! mabagal bumaba ng hgb ko sa lintik na copper sulfate na yan. akala ko ok pa rin yun at sasabihin sa akin ng intern na "ate, hintayin mo na lang tawagin ka para ibleed." so, nagexpect ako di ba? hehehe at ang sabi ng intern, ate, hindi ka pwedeng magdonate! wahahaha! ngayon lang ako nadeferred sa blood donation! hay naku... at talaga naman, binigyan pa ko ng ferrous gluconate. meaning anemic ako? hay... nadisappoint talaga ako... pero ganun talaga.. dahil sa lintik na copper sulfate na yan, hindi ko matanggap... hehehe buong maghapon silang nagscreen, malay ko ba kung pinalitan nila yung solution na yun... hehehe bitter talaga noh? pati yun gustong iblame dahil sa pagkadeferred... actually, may bonus yun para sa pathology.pero main purpose ko talaga kahit wala yung bonus na yun magdodonate pa rin ako kasi may magandang pupuntahan naman yun eh... hehehe totoo yun. sa mga dialysis patients kasi mapupunta yun. :) hay...yun lang ang kwento ko ngayon..:)