New leaf

I started my new work at the health center of our municipality. I know its not much of a training ground. I did set aside my desire to be an accomplished specialist. Maybe this new environment would make me rethink of how I lived for those 2 years. Those years made me someone that I am not in the start. I always dreamt of being a physician and it came true. But as I was fulfilling that dream, I havent noticed that its making me someone I'm not. A simple life, that is all I wanted. In my 30 years of existence I have my fair share of mistakes in so many different aspects of my life but getting out of that horrible place has never been one of them. It made me realized that it just made me a person with no conscience,  heartless, a person that has no soul at all. I asked myself if this is I want, if this is the life I want to live. yeah, for every doctor or for mostly all doctors, its a great achievement when you've become a specialist. I guess, its not for me. simplicity runs through my blood. and maybe this change in environment would bring back the humility I once had, the simplicity, and the genuine care that I always rendered to those in need. 

and I think,  being on this new environment and meeting new people, will always remind me of how lucky I am that Ive got to fulfill my dream. 

The Mistress

just watched this movie. a good movie. never had i imagined that i would like it. considering im not much fond of philippine movies. im not discriminating or something. its just that its not my preferred kind of movies to watch on the big screen. a friend just invited me to see this, i hesitated for a moment, but when he said that its his treat, well, how can a gal say no to that, right? haha though i cant really relate to the plot, but the acting of the leads was so intense that you can feel how passionate and how deep the evolution of the story went. i was expecting that the ending was a fairytale like end, "then they live happily ever after" kind of ending and I was wrong about it. its an unexpected ending or should I say something different but you'll definitely will be satisifed of it. hmm... all I can say is that this is a movie worth watching especially when someone treats you to watch this! :)

the things you can do

It made me realize how stupid I can get when it comes to that certain person I practically grew to care a lot! The things you can do for that someone you care. You cant think straight, you cant and will not say no to anything he asks of you. hmmm... its really stupid but I just cant help not to give in to anything and everything he requests. that's just me. simple minded, gullible, stupid girl whose head over heels gaga on some guy! sheesh! and apparently, all this time he just keeps on ignoring me. huh... I was thinking if maybe there'll be this time and age that the situation would turn around. him, being the stupid and gullible one and me being the ignoring type and I-really-dont-care-about-you gal! That would be epic! huh! 
its not a big deal, we're friends actually. and I'm thinking I'm JUST a FRIEND trying to help out, right? 
after all this years of being friends with the guy I like, I was hoping that someday he would realize how far I can go by helping not because we are friends but because I care about it him. I'm not asking to throw himself to me and say that he feels the same way too. but a little appreciation on his part would do. :) pathetic right? but that's how the world works! gotta be the stupid one and him being the for-all-I-care guy. 
on the other hand, maybe I'll find that someone that would care. still am hoping for that guy to come... maybe...just maybe.... 

Writing again

If it haven't been for an anonymous comment I wouldn't find my blog. It brought back memories of what I was when I was in med school. And of course my never ending whining about it. I hardly write now a days. But seeing my blog for the first time again for so many years of not checking it, I think I'll try writing again. I'm not a good writer, it doesn't matter. It's the fun and fulfillment made by writing, that's what I'm after. 😊 writing again is what I need. You can call it as some form of therapy. And maybe it is. Now, I can write about the things I can't say or the events in my life that I want to reminisce. Hmmm... I'm excited!