Troubled Mind!

hay... what a week.. im experiencing dull days. hmm.. im not sad but really troubled. thinking about many things and i can't quite resolve it. its not like me. i usually have a drive on doing things especially when it involves school work. but now i felt like i really dont care if i dont submit my papers on time, i dont care if i miss a lecture. id rather stay home and sleep! hmm.. i dont care if i didnt study for tomorrow's exams. hay... im thinking of quitting medical school. i mean to find sime time really to think if this is what i really want. i was so ashamed of myself last friday, we had our practical exam on physical diagnosis, i halfheartedly study for it just to get it over with. while being the patient of my classmate, my mind was on a whirlwind of thoughts. thinking that i cant hardly report the result of what i have done to the patient. what will happen to me in the future, when i continue to be like this? i mean, can i save lives for such an attitude? i dont think so. i want to tell it to mommy kasi talagang im beginning not to enjoy what im doing. parang nagsasawa ako. i really need some time off to get my nerves to relaxed. ewan ko, dahil ba sa dami talaga ng ginagawa kaya ganun na lang ako or im not really progressing from this. i dont know.. nwei, i hope i can get through this. i really hope...